When i get the call

When destiny calls.

Is it bad when you sit up all might trying to figure out who you are?  Figuratively, metaphorically, literally?  Wondering if you're just a average man with an average life.  Destined to work a normal job in an everyday normal town.  And you think to yourself that this can't be all there is to life.  I've never really liked "normal".   The definition of normal doesn't even fit me.  "being approximately average".  I've never done anything normal. Why have vanilla, when you can have pistachio?  Why have just pistachio, when you can have a whole damn sundae?

Maybe this is me just being greedy.  Well...YEAH.  You're damn right I'm greedy.  Give me an inch, I'm gonna try for a foot. Give me a foot, I'm going for a yard.  And what's wrong with wanting more?  What's wrong with taking a look at yourself and expecting more.  Looking at what you can do good and making it flawless.  Challenging yourself and striving to be better?  And the funny thing about me achieving my goal is myself.  

D.F.G. An acronym to keep me going.  "Destined for greatness".  But what is my destiny? What is my purpose in life?  Where does a goof-ball who thinks himself a god fit in?  Am I just another mortal with godly apserations that can't be achieved?  Or am I a god who is stuck in a mortal shell? Preparing and waiting for greatness to call.  And will my phone be charged when the call comes in?   I doubt I'll get a message.  It seems like either you're ready...or you're not.  

It's always difficult to achieve a dream.   I've never met a person or heard a story about people who got their dreams easy.  For example, Michael Jordan being cut form his high school team.  And he grew up to be the best that ever played in the NBA.  Shawn Carter didn't get a record deal immediately.  He was selling c.d.s out of the trunk of his car.  A decade and some change later, he's a mulit millionaire and still going strong.  And I personally do my best work when my back is up against the wall.   And how does the phrase go?  "An animal is most dangerous when it's back's up against the wall and has nothing to lose".  So does that mean I have to give up everything to win?  And is it worth it?  "For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeit his soul? "  Matthew 16:26.  A little dramatic, but it's a very true statement.  I've lost some people on my path to greatness.  Some people I wish who could have been along for the ride.  And for better or worst, aren't.  I do miss them, but I had to do what needed to be done.  I can't sit around waiting when staying in one spot gets you no where at all.  

I'm so damn close to it I can smell it.  I can almost reach out there and grab it.  But once you grab it, there's no turning back.  You have it and it's yours. Now here comes the responsibility.  Now you have to make it happen.  You have to work.  And I love to work.  So I should o.k.  

But I gotta go, my phones ringing and I gotta answer it.